Introduction to Diary of a Sweaty Mom : Who?! Why Are You Here?!!
Introduction to Diary of a Sweaty Mom : Who?! Why Are You Here?!!
Allow me to introduce myself, I am THEE sweaty mom that this blog is about, Stacey Nicole!!! I am a busy mom of 2, fitness enthusiast, and future accountability partner/coach. I love, love, love to be able to maneuver my body in new ways while building my stamina, eating well, and losing weight. I like being able to play with my kids without losing my breath, or worrying about my knee/back pain. Being a mom, working full-time in the healthcare industry, maintaining the home and my relationship; leaves me without much time for myself but I make it happen. I have no choice! I've learned that if I don't make time for myself, then who the hell will?!
Now, I haven't always been a fitness enthusiast; nah, not at all! Growing up in St. Louis, MO, I was always the "thick" girl in the group since as long as I can remember. I've always been the "bigger" kid of my group of friend; not only was I pudgy but I was taller than most in my age range. So I was always getting teased and made fun of because I looked older than what I actually was. Did not have an athletic bone in my body; I was not apart of any sports teams nor did I want to be apart. I've always been more intellectually inclined: I got As and Bs, participated in various academic endeavors, and won many trophies/awards due to my love for learning and wanting to make my mom proud.
As smart as I knew I was, my self-esteem was on the opposite spectrum of that. I was the kid that ate everything off of plate. I used to snack all the time, and mindlessly munch on goodies. I was always so insecure in my own body. I never felt as if I fit in, even though I always had a set of friends that I hung around. I never liked attention on me because then they would notice how "big" I was. In my teens, I got up to 200lbs at 5 foot 6 inches by the time I was 16 years old. In my eyes, I had reached my breaking point. So my mother helped me join a gym at, my request, because I felt that it had to be done. I had grown accustomed to being the "thick" friend but 200lbs was the line that I knew I shouldn't cross. After joining the gym and some moderate dieting, I lost 25lbs by the time 17th bday came around in November. However, I dropped out of high school shortly after turning 17 due to boredom, insecurities, and undiagnosed depression. I developed even worse eating habits and lived recklessly for several years after.
Fast forward to where I am now; 35 years old, 2 kids later, I having the same issue as I have as an obese teen. I'm still insecure about my body but now instead of 200lb boiling point, after having my daughter June 2017 I got up to 248lbs!!! For the longest time, I avoided the scale like the plague. I knew I was on some BS but I was too ashamed to face it. I stepped off the scale on that in April 2018, felt sick so stomach and disgusted by how much I have let myself go. My hubby stated that he would love me at 300lbs if it got to that... but I call bullshit because I wouldn't love myself at that weight, so how you could love me? Right?! Yes, I was HEAVY on the insecurity about my body, and felt like I did not want to do anything or go anywhere because I couldn't fit any of my old clothes. I felt so inadequate in my own body. It was that moment after stepping off the scale that I knew that I had to make a lifestyle change, I knew that I was tired of feeling like that. I want to live for my kids, I want to love on myself for my kids sake. I want them to know the importance of taking care of yourself, and making their health a priority. I needed to make sure that they KNOW that I gave life my all, and did everything I could physically do to be here! Everyone has the same 24 hours a day, I knew that I needed to manage my time (in addition to other changes) to include one of my top 5 people...ME!
Written by: Stacey Nicole
Accountability Coach
IG: stacey_nicolefit
